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The Hurting

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I've really had a hard week. I have felt miserable. Some days have been absolutely awful. I felt like I really needed to make this post, just to express how I feel & get it out so I'm not harboring anything longer than I have to. Every day this week, something has happened to me. I've lost some people in my life I thought were friends. I had some flooding from my furnace that ruined a college (rental)book. I've had tremendous stress from college alone that could make someone pull their hair out. BUT with everything that's happened I am trying to stay strong because the only person that I have to worry about what they think of me, is my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. That's my first duty. My second calling in life is being a wife. I have the responsibility of taking care of my family. I have to play many different roles: chef, chauffer (for lack of a better word), teacher, student, employee, friend, housekeeper. I have babies that need me, no ma...
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Words Hurt

You know, when I was in school I got bullied a lot. It hurt. I was kind of over weight for my age and being picked on really affected how I learned I will never forget the nights I cried myself to sleep because of how someone's words affected me. I was 12. I didn't know then how the world would be when I grew up.. Looking back now, I wish I could have told myself that it doesn't change. People are mean. People are hateful and spiteful and lie right through their teeth just to see you shed a tear. The biggest bullies are adults. The ones that claim to be Christians. The ones that claim to be a friend. The ones that claim they'll be there for you, or even just the person that doesn't know you, that likes to make stories up and tell everyone that it's true in some way. It's ridiculously sad. What's really important is to realize as an adult, the bullies are all around you and you have to learn how to dodge them. The pain of being bullied, ev...
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My Beautiful Life

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Hi there, So today I have decided I wanted to start blogging again. I haven't been on a blog in over 7 years. Its crazy, I know. SO many changes have been made in those 7 years. A lot of heartache, trouble, broken hearts, healing and the best part- LOVE! In 2016 I met my soulmate. It was simply a strange time in my life and I thought our relationship wouldn't last and I proved myself  completely wrong. We met at the grocery store. Yes ... the grocery store. I was a cashier and he came in and smiled at me, and somehow we connected. I knew he was amazing from that moment, because no one had ever smiled at me like he did. It was a terrible time in my life where I needed someone but I didn't know that. I thought I had my own back but he showed me he cared about me more than I cared about myself and he has helped me through my battles. I felt like we had just met and fell in love somehow. But over time, we really had a lot in common. I have four children. Yes, I know I...
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